![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Blue Sunshine ftw! <3
In non-baby-hating related news, I had a LOT of fun with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
rilms last night at the Dr. Horrible's Sing-a-Long Blog actual sing-a-long at the awesome & wonderful Blue Sunshine. SO much fun, omg! I REAALLLLYYY needed that.
Tonightshadaloo and Drew are coming over and we're gonna watch some He-Man and maybe some other 80s cartoons...yayness! Tomorrow Tali's coming over in the afternoon to watch the season 3 finale of Lost (I cannot WAIT to show it to her, seeing as it ends with my absolute favourite twist in any work of fiction of ALL time), and then in the evening I'm going to Nat's place for dinner, drinking, and reunion time with the old gang. I know I say this so often it's lost all meaning, but: West Island represent! lol
Sunday I'm going to that Salon de Marriage thingy at Palais de Congres with my mum, and then the next day I'll be subbing for her, but just in the afternoon, so I won't have to worry about insomnia bullshit. Whew!
Speaking of subbing, I got called by the subbing HQ this morning. o_O I didn't answer the phone but I saw that they called. Guess they don't hate me after all. They've called me 4 times this week. I really want to take all these jobs and make some $$$...yeaaah it'll cut out my EI but that means EI I can have stored for a later use. Basically it's a win/win situation. Assuming I stop having these fucked-up panic attacks, that is. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST I'm frustrated. But I don't want to turn this into one of THOSE kinds of posts. I'm simply writing this post so I can remember what I did a few months from now. I miss being able to go through my LJ and see what I did and when, so I'm trying to update regularly, mentioning at least MOST things that I've done during the week, and this is meant to be one of those posts. Not a post about how fucking miserable I actually am. ARGHHHH.
It's just a bad phase, I'll get through this and be back to 'normal' again (as if I'm 'normal', lol...) Juuuust a matter of time, that's all! I can get through this. But the mixture of guilt I feel when I skip a subbing job versus the insonmia and panic attack inducing anxiety when I take one on (NOT counting at my mom's school cuz I fracking LOVE that school) is an intense and suffocating catch-22 of utter despair. And with all the crazy OCD chattering going on in my brain on top of it all...omg I don't know how much longer I can put up with this shit!
rilms last night at the Dr. Horrible's Sing-a-Long Blog actual sing-a-long at the awesome & wonderful Blue Sunshine. SO much fun, omg! I REAALLLLYYY needed that. Tonight
shadaloo and Drew are coming over and we're gonna watch some He-Man and maybe some other 80s cartoons...yayness! Tomorrow Tali's coming over in the afternoon to watch the season 3 finale of Lost (I cannot WAIT to show it to her, seeing as it ends with my absolute favourite twist in any work of fiction of ALL time), and then in the evening I'm going to Nat's place for dinner, drinking, and reunion time with the old gang. I know I say this so often it's lost all meaning, but: West Island represent! lol Sunday I'm going to that Salon de Marriage thingy at Palais de Congres with my mum, and then the next day I'll be subbing for her, but just in the afternoon, so I won't have to worry about insomnia bullshit. Whew!
Speaking of subbing, I got called by the subbing HQ this morning. o_O I didn't answer the phone but I saw that they called. Guess they don't hate me after all. They've called me 4 times this week. I really want to take all these jobs and make some $$$...yeaaah it'll cut out my EI but that means EI I can have stored for a later use. Basically it's a win/win situation. Assuming I stop having these fucked-up panic attacks, that is. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST I'm frustrated. But I don't want to turn this into one of THOSE kinds of posts. I'm simply writing this post so I can remember what I did a few months from now. I miss being able to go through my LJ and see what I did and when, so I'm trying to update regularly, mentioning at least MOST things that I've done during the week, and this is meant to be one of those posts. Not a post about how fucking miserable I actually am. ARGHHHH.
It's just a bad phase, I'll get through this and be back to 'normal' again (as if I'm 'normal', lol...) Juuuust a matter of time, that's all! I can get through this. But the mixture of guilt I feel when I skip a subbing job versus the insonmia and panic attack inducing anxiety when I take one on (NOT counting at my mom's school cuz I fracking LOVE that school) is an intense and suffocating catch-22 of utter despair. And with all the crazy OCD chattering going on in my brain on top of it all...omg I don't know how much longer I can put up with this shit!